State of Being

Late April 2026!  Just some personal thoughts and beliefs. It has been a while...
Your winter season has evaporated like a brief shower on hot pavement. The shadowy, darkened cement visibly shrinks like the ebbing tide…water flowing seaward…movement across an urban plain to an unseen destination in the ethers…revealing the foundation.

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Winter. Was it a hibernation–a torpor to delay addressing emotional triggers–or a quiet period of introspective elevation for you? There are no lesser answers. You are on your own unique journey of learning. Comparisons, competitions, and time are irrelevant. 

No matter how whisper-fragile or engagingly bold, I honor your desires to find inner strength, greater self-esteem and empowerment, and, perhaps, a growing understanding that the core of your power is rooted in genuine self-love. 

It seems there is a chasm-wide divergence in our world regarding the meanings of self-love/self-empowerment/self-manifesting and also whether this inner focus is separate from God Creator/Divine Love.  My use of this term, self-love, is not about self-focused ambition or placing oneself above others, which I believe at its core is rebellion against God.  Here, I am focused on emotional healing, and releasing the emotional imbalances or wounds which seem to prevent a greater openness to God's love; to feeling worthy of being loved; to experiencing the abundance that flows from that state; and to taking a deeper look at the shift that happens in this process.  

I posit that self-love is actually a deepening connection; a spiritual evolution; an awareness that we are a reflection of Divine love -- an alignment enabling us to see that love within us; therefore, genuinely loving self is loving God.  I believe this process has components of releasing fear, seeking forgiveness, and welcoming God as one's foundation. This journey isn't simply opening a door but involves continuous growth and transformation to embody love, compassion, and wisdom more deeply.  Philosopher and theologian Jonathan Edwards wrote, "Virtue most essentially consists in love. And I suppose it is owned by the most considerable writers, to consist in general love of benevolence, or kind affection." He questioned and elaborated, "Whether all our love, or our love to each particular object of our love, does not arise from self-love? "  It is a dense thought-provoking read on the larger concepts of self-love, as well as his understanding of virtue as an interconnectedness between human will and divine order.
(Source: Edwards, Jonathan (1755). The Nature of Virtue. Chapter 4.
https://depts.washington.edu/lsearlec/TEXTS/EDWARDS/VIRTUE.HTM. Accessed April 30, 2026.)

Self-love…a state of being that I believe is identified via current culture language as:

• feeling deeply worthy of love and respect without any shallow gilding of wealth, glamour, or clout;
• that releases old reactive feelings where emotional wounding needs to be explored, forgiven, and healed;
• that feels the strength and resilience growing within your spirit when gratitude for God's love is an overarching emotion and perspective;
• that connects with the interrelated vibrancy of all living things–universal life force energy/universal biofield–and the Source of Life regardless of the name that resonates with you: The Universe, One Source, Creator, Divine, Holy Spirit, Yahweh, God and others. I chose to interchange them in writing. --About the Name: In Exodus 3:13, Moses asked God His name. God said to Moses, "I AM WHO I AM."  And, thus, revealing Himself as self-existent, eternal, and steadfast. The One who is not defined by anything outside Himself, defying containment, being omnipresent...and a name promising: “I AM with you.”

The powerful state of holding gratitude to Divine builds something energetically that seems to reflect back, brings some seemingly inexplicable sense of peace, and multiplies positive emotions - diminishing harmful perspectives that build stress responses, both physiological and emotional.  As this rebuilds or simply strengthens your core, I firmly believe you will become less and less affected by lower vibrational energies and people hoping to use or abuse you for selfish gain.  You are already empowered to create your own pathway with boundaries to maintain your sovereignty and peace.  You may benefit by reading or rereading my prior blog post on sovereignty.  I firmly believe the maturation of personal spiritual evolution brings the gift of Divine protection, as long as one remains in truth and faith.

Sometimes a period of solitude brings needed recovery, gently guiding you to the start line. I return to previously stated essential support: hold your ground. Do not be hard on yourself if you've false-started many times. It's okay.  This is forgiveness of self. No one is perfect...what does that even mean? 

I want to break open any shell that holds a quiet, depressing notion of self-hatred or self-stigma.  This world makes it even more challenging.  It can be difficult to focus on self-healing when we are inundated with 24/7 noise, meaningless and mind-wasting scrolling, and shocking revelations that elicit fear even if not always factual. 

To help find peace and connect with/strengthen one's inner core, I suggest acknowledging the beauty of YOU and the beautiful elements of the world around us. Make a standing date to get out into Nature without your electronics. Immerse yourself in that extraordinary experience. Listen to the magical symphony of birds and wind.  Close your eyes and feel the breeze in your hair and on your skin for several minutes. Maybe feel the cold tickle of gentle foamy waves at the shoreline, rhythmically covering and uncovering your feet.  All of these are forms of meditation when your mind disengages from unnecessary chatter.

You are deeply loved by Divine. Take a deep breath. Repeat. Imagine feeling that love encompassing your heart, then surrounding your body like a warm shield.  Just pretend at first, if you don’t have it in focus yet. Let's start with best practices for excelling in business and hijack them for your own wellbeing and wellness.  Unfortunately, our left brain analyzer has executed a coup and is stuck in high gear most of the time.

I've found no program within this Earth matrix that requires anyone to have the validation of others to feel or be worthy of value, love, and self-empowerment. I suggest it is a man-made illusion, reinforced by the unhealed who humorously believe they can be in control of others…they seek un-awakened targets. When prey awakens, they complain, "It's unfair," and, thus, begin a fruitless loop downward as you ascend in higher wisdom.

You are already holding a Divine light within your heart. Seek to grow this powerful perspective and knowing. 

Like all of us, I people-watch, and, sometimes, in my mind’s eye, I see the actual light beams piercing outward from their heart centers.  In a group, it can fill an entire room with light. I sense the power, and bathe in it. Sounds a bit too much? Try it. Imagination is a powerful tool and a marvelous gift. Keep it well-oiled and used frequently. 
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We are souls in human vehicles that can become worn and torn without self-care.  Take the time to establish a practical approach. Not by osmosis from reading late night articles that seem promising...but by implementing a weekly schedule of actual wellness plans.

​We are, in some respects, a singular community interconnected energetically, like a forest. This is not the same energy I write about when the uninvited/unwanted energies seek to cord with you, and boundaries need to be in place.  Sometimes, I see exhausted or angry souls and imagine them when they were a former version–full of vibrant goals and hope. I visually overlay that young, spirited person upon them and sense there may be healing energy in that action. I  believe THAT beautiful image is their true form.  I think some simply need guidance and tender understanding.  Do you genuinely look into people's eyes when you ask how they are or even saying a quick "hello"? Everyone can feel the difference when it is perfunctory or legit.  Touching people with an honest moment of connection may make a deeply dramatic difference in someone's day, heart, or mindset.  Lives can be very heavy for some to navigate. The lives that appear as easy or lucky, and, sometimes, blindly enviable to some may have come with a steep price tag of lessons that is not apparent on the face of your person.  They may just hold it with more composure or prefer not to tell everyone how challenging it has been. Not everyone looks like what they have been through. This world is full of much that is not visible without looking with your heart.  It is Earth School. There is no journey that's easy and lucky, but wise choices can make lessons smoother and rewarding.

This can be an exceptional Spring and Summer for healing and happiness. If you feel overwhelmed or want guidance, please seek out professional emotional or spiritual support, beyond anything you read or watch online. Resources are available. I hope you pursue arising questions regarding my thoughts here with your own research into those topics.  I hold loving space for everyone as we lean forward.   Jeannette Bondurant©2026
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THE GAME: ARE YOU RUMOR-CHALLENGED?
I am in exceptional health and spirits and have been all year. I am happily engaged with clients and real friends across the U.S. The game is afoot. Question the integrity of your sources regarding me, or simply reach out. 

• My fellow soul travelers, stand up against bullies. Own your power. Look with more discernment regarding who they really are and the masks they wear in certain circles to hide their character and manipulate perceptions. Become a Warrior. 

MINI BIO. I WAS ASKED TO PROVIDE DETAILS DUE TO RUMORS:
The level of personal information here is to give me ownership and prevent more general statements from morphing  with another's retelling of my story.
For the Full Footer, scroll to bottom of the next essay, December 2025. With gratitude, Jeannette​